california habits die hard

Back on the West Coast a long time ago (it feels like), I preferred Malboro Reds.  I used to sneak out on my balcony like the little bad-ass I thought I was and suck one down as fast as I could before my parents caught on.  I liked them for a variety of reasons... the goosebumps that first inhale raised on my arms, the rich, satisfying trumpet of chemical smoke I'd exhale, and also the elegant label I never really knew how to pronounce.

Eventually I came off that 5 minute buzz of feeling like a forties Femme Fatale and realized how disgusting they actually tasted.  Alas, my smoking habit disappeared just like so many of my other short-lived hobbies.  

Funny though, I never liked American Spirits.  Obviously a walking sign for unfettered ADD, I hated how they burned far longer than my 3 minute attention span.  How ironic that here, in the city where cigarette breaks last about as long as a New York minute and the cigs are expected to burn just as fast, I found myself asking for that  familiar turquoise box last week.  

They taste softer, a little less grating on my throat--and they burn deliciously slow.  There aren't many excuses to stop completely in New York, but an American Spirit works just fine.  

-c

hello again

I love sounding smart when I quote things…I’ll dig up these obscure little quotes I’m pretty sure I would’ve remembered even without Quotes.com (yeah, sure); this time though, immaturity takes the chips.  Sadly, embarrassingly, and painfully Britney is whom I reference when I say: “It’s been a while.”

It’s not some online audience I’m letting down (unless imaginary audiences count), it’s myself.  A lot has happened since my last post and most of it for the good.  I dropped out of high school, got myself a GED (3 days baby), and moved to the opposite of all things So-Cal: New York City.  I’ve been here for 2 months now interning at Nicole Miller which is absolutely amazing. 

The city is preposterously phenomenal, if I think about it too much it overwhelms me how much potential I have here.  So I’m restarting this blog--it’s my miniscule attempt to chip away at this city, and my life, one post at a time.  What am I going to write about?  I’m not an expert on anything and I’m clearly a novice to life in the city in every possible way… but who knows, could that be my one field of mastery?  

-c